1 DOWN 2 TO GO
not too long ago i had 1 of 3 cigarettes my sister had given me before she had left for vegas. it was relieving from what had happened a couple hours before. today was the 3rd time i broke down and cried my eyes out since i’ve been here. it was probably the fact that i’m missing out on life and fun. no more social life for sara gale. goodbye sin city hello wilderness. seriously, i’ve never been this depressed in a long while. the last time was i think at eisha’s house. i forgot who it was i was venting to but im pretty sure it was tommy joie and sid. i love them to death. but anyways i’ve thought about my decision of quitting long and hard. there are a hand full of people who have already told me to stop quitting but im just not listening. i had finally realized what i want to do now. maybe if i stop smoking all of these dilemmas in my life will disappear. not only am i doing this for my family and friends who care so much about me but im gonna do it more for myself. its going to be hard but i know i can do it. its only mind over matter. if my bff and future roomie can do it so can i. good night and sweet dreams
